Truth Behind Emoness ♥

Why? If only I realise sooner, that the truth behind my emoness, if only I realise earlier, I won't feel so bad, my life would be better :(
It's me, myself that make myself emo :(

It was always me, think of all the nonsense, think of all the stupid things, like an idiot. I'm so sorry my friend, my deepest my apologise to all of you :(
I worry too much perhaps. Ugh.
Other than apologising, I have no idea what to say. Sorry :(

♥Lmw'

Deep Thought Mood ♥

Just went through some really really deep thought today. Hmm, weird, so this is what in my mind? I don't know how to simply it, or just say what happened. Simple thing, complicated feelings.

I planned on telling you my feelings, how much I need you, how much I love you. But somehow, I feel like, it will be better, if I keep it to myself, not letting you know, not telling you. It's not that I don't love you any more, just that, I don't have confident in myself. Way too many better guys out there. 

Stay as friend, I think it would be better for you. Although it might be really hurt for me, but as long as the decision is good for you, it worth every single pain, single blood, single suffer. 

Still, I hope that I will be that guy, your one and only. 

♥Lmw'

You're The Killer ♥

I forgot it's been how long, since my last update on my blog. Since blog is my place to tell everything that's in my mind.

Today, should be a really really happy day. Everything went well, until that sentence came out from you. The moment you said that, you just killed me. The entire day, I tried my best to be myself, be the usual me, but, I can't. I can't do random thingy, I can't think of anything to say, I can't think of anything, other than the sentence you just said. But I bet you don't know how your words can hurt me, hmm..
But I got better, and better after that. Thanks a lot, my sister, if it wasn't you, how would my day be?
You're just like an angel to me, even though you don't know how to comfort a person. But guess what? Best part of a listener : 'You don't need to comfort a person to make that person feel better'. You're that kind of listener to me. It might make you feel bad for not comforting me, but telling you everything makes me feel better. Kinda funny when I saw you trying really really hard to comfort me. Anyway, thanks, I appreciate your try. Well, tell you the truth, chance of success to comfort me, is nearly 0. :P
Thanks for accompanying me until so late at night sis, hope you can wake up tomorrow for your tuition :D

Guess I need to work on my attitude and emotions.

♥Lmw'

Long Awaited ♥

Hey bloggie ! People been asking what happened to you lately, never have any updates. Sorry, just too lazy to. Hehes, sorry bloggie :3

Well, nothing special happened these past dayssssss, or weeksss. Just today, something happened. But I won't go long for this, cause I don't really know how to bring this into words. So, let's get it started then :)

So, anyone noticed that I got really really emo for a period of time in school ? Well, someone just told me something that really really hurt me, just like a knife, stab through my heart. Then, I started to wonder, what if she choose other guys? Of course, I felt really really sad for it. But I know I can't do a thing if I'm not her right one. Even though, I can't imagine that if she really fall for a guy, that is not me. Hmm, I wonder, how will my life be? It will change, definitely, but how would it be? I guess, it will rain, everyday.

A short post for today, I'm too lazy, sorry bloggie :3

♥Lmw'