The Sweet & Bitterness ♥

Hey bloggie, today will be a longggg post I suppose :3
Okay, so let me start with this:

The Sweetness.
Yesterday got a text from my very best friend, Zhao. She was in Selangor ! WOHOHOO.
And somemore stay near my place ! OMG ! Really unexpected !
You all should look at my face yesterday in school, it is like ':D', even brighter. Feel really happy :3
And night, we went to Chatime, and decide to snap a photo. 2 idiots dunno how to take photos, so end up with infinite times of tries, only picked 1 to post on instagram. Satisfied :3
Chat a lot, even we just met for about 40 minutes. Short of time :(
Looking forward to see you again ! Best friend forever ♥

Best friend forever ♥

And now today. Of course, school day, happy ! Wehheeee ♥
Today I went school quite early, and then as usual, I went to my friends. They are chatting as usual. Hmm, not sure anyone realise, but I often keep my eyes on the gate, waiting for her. And at last, she was here :D
*Bright smile from her

*Me almost fainted 

LOL, just kidding, but she did smile at me, as cheerful as always :)

Hehess, spend another schooling day with her, sitting beside her :3

Best things to do in school : Look at her, think of her and suddenly smile like an idiot, chit-chat with friends, sing with friends, troll with friends ♥

I'm so so happy, until 12pm...

All of a sudden, thunder storm strikes right in my heart, I crawl around like a lost puppy, feeling miserable..

That moment, it's like a knife stab right in my heart. I feel scare, worry. I wanted to hold her tight, I don't wanted to wait for another 17 hours to meet, I wanted to tell her that I like her. 

But I'm afraid, I know she needs more time. Staying like this is better than being awkward everyday. 

Hope that I will get used to it soon. That feeling.. 

'You should be happy that you can get so close with her you know ! Not many people can see their love ones that often' Someone told me this, and I totally agree with it. How can I forgot to appreciate what I have? Thanks for giving me advice, and bringing me back to myself again ♥

Sorry if my attitude in the last hour freak you all out :P


Now : The Bitterness.
Sobs~
I never know, how to appreciate when you were with me. I should have talk to you more, snap photos with you more, tell you how much I missed you, loved you, and care about you more..
Will it be too late now? Do I have another chance to snap photo with you again?
Please God, please, don't take her with you now, I still need her, I still have a lot of things to do with her..
I wanted to snap loads of photos with her, travel around with her, show her my girlfriend, meet my wife, listen to my children call her grandma, see her bright smile, see her hair grow white, day by day...
Please, not now, not now !
I haven't even do a thing that a son should do, my responsible..
You've leave me for 7 years, but it's okay ! It's okay ! Just don't leave me forever !
There are  a lot of things that you have missed about me, I wanted to show them all to you, I can sing, dance, cook...
I wanted you to be proud that you have me as your son, I wanted to make you smile, I wanted you !
So please, stay strong ! Don't ever think of giving up !
I needed you, I need you now, I need you in the future, I need you always...

♥Lmw'