Worst Feeling Ever ♥

Hey bloggie,came to visit you again :)

Today something very very horror happened. Will starts from school.
Morning woke up late, forgot to turn on my alarm LOL. Of well, at least I still get to school by time :)
Had a great time in school, but today is Friday :(
Need to wait until next week to see her. Oh well, at least I get to see her again :'(  (Continue reading to find out why I put this symbol)
Then after school, went CF.
Heard that our Maths teacher's mom passed away. Really sorry to hear that. May her soul rest in peace, and take care too teacher ♥
Ugh, why I keep receiving bad news around?! Bio teacher, mom, friend's dad, now maths teacher?! I don't want more of these :(

After CF, rush to Parade and get Famous Amos cookies. For what? Of course, get it for her :3
Well, heard that she wanted to eat, so I go get it :)
After that rush to have my lunch, and tuition.
When I reached tuition, seats changed. I feel weird. They leave a seat beside her for me.
Then when I sited down, something freak me out.
'Esther's car got crashed by a lorry, Syuen hit her head on the window.'
Literally, I look at her, and she looks totally fine, but in my heart, I'm panic. So panic..
I was thinking what to say, what should I do...
But quite failed, I just asked 'Are you alright?' and few pats behind her back..
I can't do much :(
And after I heard that, I have a feeling, to hold her, but I know it's just not right..
After that, a lot of stuffs pop out of my mind..
'What if in that accident, she got serious injure and got into hospital? What if one day, I suddenly leave this world? What if we will never meet again? Then, would I ever able to tell you that how much I like you right in your face? And eventually, I will start to regret that I didn't tell you earlier, I didn't hold all the chances I can...'
I feel like crying that time, I'm really really worry about her, I'm afraid that she will leave me, and we would never meet again..
Why everyone around me keep having bad news? Please stop that ! PLEASE !
And I did gave her the cookies, and she looks happy. But insist to pay me back. Of course, I didn't accept it.
After tuition, I feeling emo, and think everything negatively. Luckily there is someone that advise and comfort me :)
Thanks a lot ♥

After that incident, I start to think, should I tell her before it's too late? Must find one day, someday after exam, take out all my courage, and tell her that she is someone special to me, tell her how much I appreciate her, tell her how happy I'm to meet her, before it's too late...

In-reply-to someone that said 'Everything is fake':
If everyone is lying, would you believe in yourself? If everyone is acting, would you still be yourself? If everyone is fake, would you stay real? If everything is fake, will you search for that real?
I have no idea what happen, but after all, all of this is real if only you believe. You believe that the people you can share everything is your best friend, and this is how that person became your best friend. You believe in someone's word, that is how it become real. You believe someone's personalities is what they showed, that is how it become real. You believe that person, that's how they become real. It's all in your perspective. Even if someone try so hard to show their true self, if you don't believe it, it is not real.
I'm no one to judge who you are, to tell you what to do. But I just wanna tell you, you are real to me, I believe you are my friend, and I'm trying hard to look clearly your personalities, cause I believe that there is something really deep inside you. And I believe that, you are REAL :)

♥Lmw'