Before The World Ends ♥

I know, it is odd to say I love you. I might not even know you well enough, but I know myself, I know myself, my heart. Words might lie, but heart don't. If there is a thing, that can see through someone's mind, use it on me, and you will see, my mind is always full of you. It actually took me quite a lot of courage to tell you that, but I feel happy after that, because, finally, I told you. I don't need to keep it to myself anymore. And now, you will know that, I treated you good, not because of you are my friend, is because you are someone special to me. Well, if the world ends tomorrow, I might not be able to see you again, but my love for you will still goes on, even if there is no tomorrow.

Sometimes I smile for no reason, like an idiot. People might laugh at me. But, little do they know, the reason I smile for no reason, is you. :3

See, what have you done to my life? You gonna seriously pay for it I tell you. I will make you feel the same way I feel for you, make you smile for no reason because of me, make you think of me every night before you go to bed, make you wanna hug me when you feel cold, make you wanna lean on my shoulder when you feel sleepy, and make you love me, like no others before.

But in fact, I'm still very afraid to tell you how much I love you. I hope you can feel it, with your heart. I'll always be here, waiting, for you, for your answer. ♥

♥Lmw'

Truth Behind Emoness ♥

Why? If only I realise sooner, that the truth behind my emoness, if only I realise earlier, I won't feel so bad, my life would be better :(
It's me, myself that make myself emo :(

It was always me, think of all the nonsense, think of all the stupid things, like an idiot. I'm so sorry my friend, my deepest my apologise to all of you :(
I worry too much perhaps. Ugh.
Other than apologising, I have no idea what to say. Sorry :(

♥Lmw'

Deep Thought Mood ♥

Just went through some really really deep thought today. Hmm, weird, so this is what in my mind? I don't know how to simply it, or just say what happened. Simple thing, complicated feelings.

I planned on telling you my feelings, how much I need you, how much I love you. But somehow, I feel like, it will be better, if I keep it to myself, not letting you know, not telling you. It's not that I don't love you any more, just that, I don't have confident in myself. Way too many better guys out there. 

Stay as friend, I think it would be better for you. Although it might be really hurt for me, but as long as the decision is good for you, it worth every single pain, single blood, single suffer. 

Still, I hope that I will be that guy, your one and only. 

♥Lmw'

You're The Killer ♥

I forgot it's been how long, since my last update on my blog. Since blog is my place to tell everything that's in my mind.

Today, should be a really really happy day. Everything went well, until that sentence came out from you. The moment you said that, you just killed me. The entire day, I tried my best to be myself, be the usual me, but, I can't. I can't do random thingy, I can't think of anything to say, I can't think of anything, other than the sentence you just said. But I bet you don't know how your words can hurt me, hmm..
But I got better, and better after that. Thanks a lot, my sister, if it wasn't you, how would my day be?
You're just like an angel to me, even though you don't know how to comfort a person. But guess what? Best part of a listener : 'You don't need to comfort a person to make that person feel better'. You're that kind of listener to me. It might make you feel bad for not comforting me, but telling you everything makes me feel better. Kinda funny when I saw you trying really really hard to comfort me. Anyway, thanks, I appreciate your try. Well, tell you the truth, chance of success to comfort me, is nearly 0. :P
Thanks for accompanying me until so late at night sis, hope you can wake up tomorrow for your tuition :D

Guess I need to work on my attitude and emotions.

♥Lmw'

Long Awaited ♥

Hey bloggie ! People been asking what happened to you lately, never have any updates. Sorry, just too lazy to. Hehes, sorry bloggie :3

Well, nothing special happened these past dayssssss, or weeksss. Just today, something happened. But I won't go long for this, cause I don't really know how to bring this into words. So, let's get it started then :)

So, anyone noticed that I got really really emo for a period of time in school ? Well, someone just told me something that really really hurt me, just like a knife, stab through my heart. Then, I started to wonder, what if she choose other guys? Of course, I felt really really sad for it. But I know I can't do a thing if I'm not her right one. Even though, I can't imagine that if she really fall for a guy, that is not me. Hmm, I wonder, how will my life be? It will change, definitely, but how would it be? I guess, it will rain, everyday.

A short post for today, I'm too lazy, sorry bloggie :3

♥Lmw'

The Complicated Feelings ♥

Hey bloggie, sorry, been too lazy to update you :3

Gonna talk about all my feelings in the past few days.
Whenever I texted with my ex-crush, I have some weird feelings. I can't identify it. I took a lot of times, to try to figure it, but still, I failed.
Someone told me: 'it is just some complicated feelings you had towards her, cause she was your crush before. As long as you know who you love right now, it is fine'
Well, yeah, she isn't the one in my mind. It is just some old time feelings. After all, I treated her as my besties. Although I don't love you like last time, but whenever you need someone to talk to, someone to be your listener, I'll be there for you, as a friend :)
Anyway, you won't fall for me even though what I do. If you will, you already did :P

I can't remember, how much I loved you, how much I cared about you, how much tears I drop because of you, how much pain I cost myself loving you, how a fool I am to fall for you, how my heart broke because of you... All of this, I can't remember, but I will never forget.
Thank you, for breaking my heart, tearing me apart. If it isn't you, I won't grow up. Seriously, people just need someone to hurt them badly only they will realise on their own.
Now, there are something in my head spinning around, some questions. All my love, my efforts, do you received it? Do you realised how deep it is? Do you even know how my heart scatter into pieces because of you?!
If you ask me, do I hate you, my answer is: No, never once.
I pull myself away, because I loved you too much, and I know if I keep going, there won't be an ending. After all I'm not that guy you wanted, after all I just can't make you loved me back, after all, I'm just your besties..
But it doesn't sounds that bad. At least, I know that someone would need me when they are unhappy, someone would wanted me to be a listener. I'm so glad and happy to help you out.
'Stay alive, keep going, live your life, proud glowing.' - Simple words especially for you :)
In case you don't know I'm talking about you: Vivian Choe ♥

So now, it is about another thingy, something lovely.
'Heart is broken when words leave unspoken.' - Edwin Hew
He told me this, and that's how I'm feeling right now. I wanted to let her know, but, it is not time yet. I must control myself. If I really love her, I can wait, wait until we understand each other more, until we can read each other's mind, and until the day I'm the Special One to her.
How I wish that she knows all of these. How I wish that she is also thinking about me.
I got a bad habit recently. When I have nothing to do, I will think of her, and just smile, like an idiot. But I enjoy doing it.
Hey girl, umm, do you know that, there is a guy over here, that place your photo on a dart board, and throw it everyday, yet he misses all his shoot, how dumb, but he is smiling, he is happy, he is crying... He miss you so much, that sometimes, he just look at your photo, and recall the days he spent with you, the things he did with you, the way he made you laugh, the strength he used when knocked your head, the emotion when you got a surprise from him...
But, he don't care how much it hurts to wait, it worth it, it totally worth it, cause the joy he got, far exceed the pain he gets, it is the tears of happiness :')

That's all for my feelings. Been too lazy to study these days, must do some revision ! MOTIVATION ! Come !
But I will never forget to do one thing. Opps, I miss again ♥

♥Lmw'

After The Though Times ♥

Hey bloggie, long time no see :3
Sorry for not updating, had exam in the previous days. Not doing well in the exam, sure die x(

Wednesday after exam, went lunch with friends, and my crush :3
Had a great day, took plenty of photos.Then after that went karaoke with another bunch of friends. I went totally crazy, lost control xD
I think everyone is afraid of me now xD

Then today, went on a date with schoolmates. And of course, she was there >.<
Not much to say about today actually, just went ice-skating and movie. Had a lot of fun in ice-skating, like it a lot !
After that went lunch at Sakae Sushi. After that, I keep asking Cheing for photos, she kinda freaked out I think xD
Then went movie, Expandable 2. NICE ! But I've no idea who is who xD
Follow by bowling. Seriously, I suck xD
Edwin, are you kidding me?! BEGINNER AND YOU CAN PLAY SO WELL ?!
You must be a genius xD
Feel like going for archery, but it is too expensive :(
After that she went back, gonna miss her a lot :(
SO GONNA MISS HER MUCH !
Anyway, gonna meet her tomorrow :3
Happy :)

I think that's all for today, getting tired and still ft-ing with Zhao xD
Nvm, will yawn in tuition tomorrow >.<

♥Lmw'

Worry No More ♥

Worry no more, it already became a fact. So there are high chances that you will leave, so soon? Or in few years? I really hope that the result will hit the minor, so you could stay here. But it's a bit too late right? I'm so sorry that I don't know how to appreciate you when I can, sorry for all the childishness have in me, I wanna say all the sorry, before it's too late. I wanna say all the loves, before it's too late. I wanna keep all my promises, before it's too late. But, isn't it too late now? It's too late, to regret, it's too late, to change, it's too late, too late...

Piece of advice to everyone, appreciate, before it's too late. You never know how much she sacrificed for you. You never know how pain it is, to give birth. You never know how hurt she is, every time you walk and fall. You never know how is it feels, when you ignore her. You never know how it feels, when you achieve something. You never know, cause you're not her. She precious you more than everything, more than herself. Ask yourself, how much you treasured her? How much you thank her for everything she did for you? All the sacrifices, all the time, all the effort, all the best, she gave it to you.
When you were still a baby, the first time you called her 'mom', the joy in her, you can't imagine it. The first time you tried to stand up and walk, the happiness in her, you can't imagine it. The first time you scolded her, even by accident, the sadness in her, you can't imagine it. The first time you did something really really wrong, the disappointment in her, you can't imagine it. The first time you achieve something, the satisfaction in her, you can't imagine it. All of these, you can't imagine it. You can only experience it.
Sometimes, she let you fall down, and asked you to stand up yourself, doesn't meant that she doesn't love you. It's because she loves you more than everything, she wanted you to learn to never give up. So at last, you stand up, you walk, you run, you jump. Imagine that if she keep helping you, carrying you around since you're a baby, till now, do you even know what it is feel like when you step on the ground?
Sometimes, you let her down, disappointing her, even though she feel sad, but she will try her best, just to cheer you up. She forgive whatever you did, you mad at her, shouted at her, scolded her, doesn't matter, she still love you more than everything. Do you know how hard is it to cheer someone when you're not even in mood? But only her, she can do it.
Love surpass everything, but have you realised it yet?
Open your eyes big, open your heart wide, feel it, feel the love, appreciate it, before it's too late.

♥Lmw'

Song And Lyrics ♥

Hey bloggie, sorry to say this, I'm going to write in Chinese today. Sorry :3

Well, I changed a lyrics of a song today in class, when teacher is teaching. Ugh, I hate that feel, when I got the idea when I'm in the middle of the class.

其实（原来-林俊杰）
窗外的雨滴诉说我的苦
但始终也没能让我舒服
还徘徊在伤心的过去
走不出那段回忆
做什么还是不能够忘记

其实我每一夜都会独自躲着哭泣
其实我每一天都会偷偷地想念你
我终是会一脸笑嘻嘻
但却没有人懂我有多么伤心
其实你离开了以后我不是我自己
其实你最后的一句我根本没听进
傻傻等着你
却又一次一次的碎心

Done with the song lyrics. Well, not a really good one though. Will do better next time :)
And I came out with some...quote? I think I can call it that way. Just my own perspective about loves. Going to share it :)

男人不好，不是因为他心肠坏，
而是，他还没遇见对的人，
不懂珍惜，不懂真心。

好男人，不能只用眼睛看，
要用心感受，用心观察。

女人对一个男人好，
不是因为她不能没有他，
只是她希望自己的真心，
能够换来那个男人的真心。

It's your fault,
not because of what you did,
it's because,
you believed.


That's all I got, well, it's my own perspective about love. Hope you all enjoy it :)

♥Lmw'

On My Mind ♥

Hey bloggie, I'm back :D
Somehow I managed to get up and watch Olympic. Wohoohoo !
Well, men's diving, he did a great job. Although you didn't get any medal, but still, you're one of the world ranked diver :D

Fuufuu, not sure about this, but somehow I'm the only one who care about the Maths assignment. Seriously?
Well, still have one question left, but now is a bit too late, so not going to continue >.<
Why am I staying up so late? Haha, just now watched Olympic then continue with Maths assignment. Now looking for notes about 'computer'.
Well, it's harder than I imagined ! But doesn't matter, just do it !

Hmm, wonder how long I haven't stay up so late. Last time I used to be like this, but it's not so healthy, so I changed. But today, because of Olympic >.<

Midnight, always make a person in deep thought mood.
Even I'm in deep thought mood, I'm still thinking of you.
*Sigh
I wanted to text more with you, but you always thought you are disturbing me, can't be help.
*Deep sigh
Oh well, not really much to post today. Or rather say that I'm so tired that I forgot what I wanted to post. AHAHA ! Sorry yarr.

That's all for today I guess :)

♥Lmw'

Short One ♥

Hey bloggie ! Just here to tell you that, going to wake up later, so will update my stuff later.
Why? OLYMPIC MARATHON ! MALAYSIA ! GO FOR GOLD ! CYCLING AND DIVING !!
That's all for now :3

- TO BE CONTINUE -

Thought Too Much? ♥

Hey bloggie, don't know why, but I feel like blogging everyday. Hmm, I think is just to express my feelings, and keep my viewer updates? Ahaha. >.<

Hmm, well, nothing really happy happened today. Quite pissed off. Ugh.
Let's start with this morning. When I woke up, the broken hearted feeling still stay deep inside me. Sigh.
About 9 something, at last I manage to get out of the bed. When I decide to take a shower, someone locks the door. Must be my younger cousin. Bet she wanna take a shower. Oh well, so I waited, meanwhile, surfing the net on phone.
After 10 minutes, I heard no sound. Then I go her room knock on her door. 'Are you going to use the bathroom?' And she replied 'Yea, I wanna take a shower'. And I was like: Dafuq? 10 minutes ago you locked the door, and now you still lying on your bed?! Just you are the youngest doesn't mean that you don't need to consider about others !
Felt so pissed off, then I walked away. Went downstairs watch tv. The show ‘We Not Naughty' 孩子不坏. Oh my gosh ! That show really touching. There was a scene, when the mother going to give birth, her sacrifice, made me cry like hell. Ugh, just wanted to say, 'Thank you mom, I love you ♥'
Nothing special after that.

Studies for awhile, then felt super active, feel like going out for badminton or basketball. Too bad I don't have a partner :(
Oh well, so I slack for like an hour. Then went jogging. Luckily no rain :3
Went back from run, oh damn, my leg, I can't walk properly >.<
But I had fun, looking at those parent brought their children to the park, play with them, hold them while they are walking and running around, race with them, just shoooooo sweet ♥
I always imagine that, one day, I'll hold your hand, then we will have our children, day by day, see them grow up, and teach them, guide them, listen to them, concern about them, until the day, both of us lost our breath, lost our heartbeat, we will pray for them from another world. ♥

Hehes, back back, back from day dreaming :3
Then I was on my computer, downloading loads of songs. While waiting, nothing better to do. So I google searched someone's name. And guess what? Her blog appear right in the first option !
I almost fall off my seat laughing. Just so damn funny ahahaha !
Go almost through all the posts, still can't find the thing I wanted to know, but at least I have some clue now :)
Will finish it someday :P

That's all for today activities :D

Re http://b2utydreams.blogspot.com/2012/08/blog-post.html :
Well, you said, you imagine and think too much. It hurts, I agree. Me too, every time I imagine, but eventually, reality is still reality. But do you know how people achieve their dreams? It is because they have dreams. All the time, they keep imagining and it became their motivation to make things happen.
Thought too much, is because we wanted something badly, but if we don't even think about it, it means that we don't even care about it, and that's why we won't feel sad. If you really want it so badly, you should try your best, give out everything to get it ! Thinking too much make you sad right? Then make it real ! I know it ain't easy, but if you don't try, you might never know. At least try your best, surpass your limit !
And I believe if you are determine enough, dreams will come true :)
But remember, don't go too over. Actually, until a point, you will know whether it works or not. But even though you know it won't work, you will keep going, because you already believed in it. Don't worry, it will stop when you found something else, that mean more than that, that works, that is the right one.
So as a conclusion, just don't give up, thinking might hurts, but giving up make you lost everything :)

Oh yea ! I just realised that this post, I haven't talked about her yet :P
Well, tomorrow school day, so YAY ! At last I can see her, after all these daysssss T.T
Oh my goshhh, I missed her smile, her laugh, her sound... BADLY !
*being silly
Every time I listened to a love song, I will smile like an idiot. I think have a condition.
Should visit the doctor, but it's not the time yet.
Because the only doctor that can save me, is you ♥

♥Lmw'

A Broken Relation ♥

Hey bloggie, I'm back again, today. Now you see how much I'm slacking >.<

So 5 hours ago, was the Olympic Badminton Match: Malaysia vs China.
A lot of us, Malaysian, put on high hopes on him for the first medal. But somehow, he lost, and get silver medal.
But, you know, he is still the best. From ESPN Commentator: 'Skill win you medals but attitude win hearts'. Your attitude is way better than your opponent. Moreover, you are having pain killer in the past few fights. Bet you still haven't recover completely from your injury. Even though, you still play for your country. Really, proud of you. You deserve something more than a Gold Medal, respect. Datuk Lee Chong Wei, you're the best :)

Done with the badminton post. Now, hmm, should start with the lovely post, as my iPod is playing a love song :3
Texted with her, and talking about the match today. Ahaha, well, she was so so excited. But in the end, both of us feel like crying. Just so close :(
After that we texted. And she still thought that I like her friend. Oh my my my, how innocent can you be? Is already so so obvious, but you still.. Gahhh ! But that's good too, so I can tell you right in your face someday :3

Now, the sad one.
It's about my cousin, the elder one. Weird right? Cause when I talked about her, it will usually be a happy post. But this time, just so different.
Not sure what happened, somehow, you didn't talk to me a lot like last time anymore. You never tell me what happened in school anymore, you're so cool to me. I'm so not important that you don't even bother to reply my tweet, reply my message, reply what I ask, and go through all the stories I tell you. That's just sad. I've no idea why, but somehow something happened, makes you don't even wanted to bother me. Is it just me, or you've really changed? I missed how we used to be, all those stories you told me, all those laughs we had, all of those things, are becoming memories...
Memories? Not sure if you even bother to remember it.
I just so wanted a sister, but I think I don't know how to maintain our relationship. Fail brother, can't even make you think me as your brother. Although you are not my sister, but I already thought that, you are my sister.
Just, what can I do to fix this? Sigh...

Planed for a short post, but it end up a long one. Haha, bye bloggie :)

♥Lmw'

Everyone Makes Mistakes ♥

Hey bloggie, I'm back again :)

Friend feeling guilty for what she did. But hey, everyone makes mistakes, it's alright now, nobody get hurts, and nobody wanna see you like this. We want the trolling you, the flipping you :)
Hope you get through it soon :)

Somehow I forgot what I wanna talk about. Ahaha ! Oh well, let's start with what I did today.

Woke up at 6 today, cause I wanted to fetch my cousin sis to school. Well, really sacrificing ! Feel really sleepy now. Relatives came to house today, and we went to play basketball in the evening. Fun, and tiring. I still prefer badminton :3

Oh Monday holiday, sad sad :(
I wanted to see her soon ! Missed her a lot. :(
Well, did text her at night, but do you know that I never wanna say bye? You are my motivation larh >.<

Hmm, seems like a short post for today. Nothing much happened. So night peeps :)

♥Lmw'

Worst Feeling Ever ♥

Hey bloggie,came to visit you again :)

Today something very very horror happened. Will starts from school.
Morning woke up late, forgot to turn on my alarm LOL. Of well, at least I still get to school by time :)
Had a great time in school, but today is Friday :(
Need to wait until next week to see her. Oh well, at least I get to see her again :'(  (Continue reading to find out why I put this symbol)
Then after school, went CF.
Heard that our Maths teacher's mom passed away. Really sorry to hear that. May her soul rest in peace, and take care too teacher ♥
Ugh, why I keep receiving bad news around?! Bio teacher, mom, friend's dad, now maths teacher?! I don't want more of these :(

After CF, rush to Parade and get Famous Amos cookies. For what? Of course, get it for her :3
Well, heard that she wanted to eat, so I go get it :)
After that rush to have my lunch, and tuition.
When I reached tuition, seats changed. I feel weird. They leave a seat beside her for me.
Then when I sited down, something freak me out.
'Esther's car got crashed by a lorry, Syuen hit her head on the window.'
Literally, I look at her, and she looks totally fine, but in my heart, I'm panic. So panic..
I was thinking what to say, what should I do...
But quite failed, I just asked 'Are you alright?' and few pats behind her back..
I can't do much :(
And after I heard that, I have a feeling, to hold her, but I know it's just not right..
After that, a lot of stuffs pop out of my mind..
'What if in that accident, she got serious injure and got into hospital? What if one day, I suddenly leave this world? What if we will never meet again? Then, would I ever able to tell you that how much I like you right in your face? And eventually, I will start to regret that I didn't tell you earlier, I didn't hold all the chances I can...'
I feel like crying that time, I'm really really worry about her, I'm afraid that she will leave me, and we would never meet again..
Why everyone around me keep having bad news? Please stop that ! PLEASE !
And I did gave her the cookies, and she looks happy. But insist to pay me back. Of course, I didn't accept it.
After tuition, I feeling emo, and think everything negatively. Luckily there is someone that advise and comfort me :)
Thanks a lot ♥

After that incident, I start to think, should I tell her before it's too late? Must find one day, someday after exam, take out all my courage, and tell her that she is someone special to me, tell her how much I appreciate her, tell her how happy I'm to meet her, before it's too late...

In-reply-to someone that said 'Everything is fake':
If everyone is lying, would you believe in yourself? If everyone is acting, would you still be yourself? If everyone is fake, would you stay real? If everything is fake, will you search for that real?
I have no idea what happen, but after all, all of this is real if only you believe. You believe that the people you can share everything is your best friend, and this is how that person became your best friend. You believe in someone's word, that is how it become real. You believe someone's personalities is what they showed, that is how it become real. You believe that person, that's how they become real. It's all in your perspective. Even if someone try so hard to show their true self, if you don't believe it, it is not real.
I'm no one to judge who you are, to tell you what to do. But I just wanna tell you, you are real to me, I believe you are my friend, and I'm trying hard to look clearly your personalities, cause I believe that there is something really deep inside you. And I believe that, you are REAL :)

♥Lmw'

Stay Strong? Stay Happy? ♥

Hey bloggie :D
Somehow I feel like updating yoou everyday >.<

Just thought of something: Stay strong, move on ♥
Well, stay strong and move on? Stay strong, bare all the pain alone, like a warrior, a hero..
Sorry to tell you, I'm not that great. I need someone to rely on as well. So instead of staying strong, I stay happy and move on...
And you are the reason for me to be happy ♥
Haha, really so in love with you. You always made me happy. Can't you see that you are different from others?
I really feel so happy that I can get so close to her, and see her every weekdays.
*Smiling like an idiot at the moment
Although sometimes feel sad when it's about time to say bye, but I'll see her another day :)
Can't wait until tomorrow, I have a plan >.<
Hehes, well, the fact that I like her, getting very very obvious. :)

TO: Someone that tell me 'You should be happy that you can get so close to her you know ! Not many people can see their love ones that often'

Not sure that my assumption is right or not, I feel that you still like him. It's okay to be loyal, but it will be stupid to loyal on someone that don't even give a damn on you. Sorry if my words hurt you. I know how it feel, cause I've been in love, and in pain too. I gave everything, but what I get is just another broken heart. If you are in a bad mood, you can always find me, I can be your listener. I might not be a good listener, but I will try my best to comfort you. Hope you will read this. Stay happy and move on, remember that you still got a bunch of friends, crazy one, funny one, self-loving one, even with different personalities, all of us have ONE SAME THING: we care for you. So you are not alone :)

That's all for today, getting really really tired, can't even keep my eyes open. Nights peeps :)

♥Lmw'

The Sweet & Bitterness ♥

Hey bloggie, today will be a longggg post I suppose :3
Okay, so let me start with this:

The Sweetness.
Yesterday got a text from my very best friend, Zhao. She was in Selangor ! WOHOHOO.
And somemore stay near my place ! OMG ! Really unexpected !
You all should look at my face yesterday in school, it is like ':D', even brighter. Feel really happy :3
And night, we went to Chatime, and decide to snap a photo. 2 idiots dunno how to take photos, so end up with infinite times of tries, only picked 1 to post on instagram. Satisfied :3
Chat a lot, even we just met for about 40 minutes. Short of time :(
Looking forward to see you again ! Best friend forever ♥

Best friend forever ♥

And now today. Of course, school day, happy ! Wehheeee ♥
Today I went school quite early, and then as usual, I went to my friends. They are chatting as usual. Hmm, not sure anyone realise, but I often keep my eyes on the gate, waiting for her. And at last, she was here :D
*Bright smile from her

*Me almost fainted 

LOL, just kidding, but she did smile at me, as cheerful as always :)

Hehess, spend another schooling day with her, sitting beside her :3

Best things to do in school : Look at her, think of her and suddenly smile like an idiot, chit-chat with friends, sing with friends, troll with friends ♥

I'm so so happy, until 12pm...

All of a sudden, thunder storm strikes right in my heart, I crawl around like a lost puppy, feeling miserable..

That moment, it's like a knife stab right in my heart. I feel scare, worry. I wanted to hold her tight, I don't wanted to wait for another 17 hours to meet, I wanted to tell her that I like her. 

But I'm afraid, I know she needs more time. Staying like this is better than being awkward everyday. 

Hope that I will get used to it soon. That feeling.. 

'You should be happy that you can get so close with her you know ! Not many people can see their love ones that often' Someone told me this, and I totally agree with it. How can I forgot to appreciate what I have? Thanks for giving me advice, and bringing me back to myself again ♥

Sorry if my attitude in the last hour freak you all out :P


Now : The Bitterness.
Sobs~
I never know, how to appreciate when you were with me. I should have talk to you more, snap photos with you more, tell you how much I missed you, loved you, and care about you more..
Will it be too late now? Do I have another chance to snap photo with you again?
Please God, please, don't take her with you now, I still need her, I still have a lot of things to do with her..
I wanted to snap loads of photos with her, travel around with her, show her my girlfriend, meet my wife, listen to my children call her grandma, see her bright smile, see her hair grow white, day by day...
Please, not now, not now !
I haven't even do a thing that a son should do, my responsible..
You've leave me for 7 years, but it's okay ! It's okay ! Just don't leave me forever !
There are  a lot of things that you have missed about me, I wanted to show them all to you, I can sing, dance, cook...
I wanted you to be proud that you have me as your son, I wanted to make you smile, I wanted you !
So please, stay strong ! Don't ever think of giving up !
I needed you, I need you now, I need you in the future, I need you always...

♥Lmw'

Bloody Monday? Lovely Monday? ♥

Hey peoples, it's MONDAY ! How was your Monday? Mine was awesome :D

We had an experiment today, need to 'poke' our finger tip to get some blood. Somehow, I only get my blood in my 3rd attempt. 3 holes on my finger xD

And I felt dizzy literally, not sure I'm weak, or just not enough food, or just scare of blood. Ughh.
Nothing much about the experiment. Just about the Blood, so what a Bloody Monday :3

You see, I like to post about how I feel and my love stories more :3

Yay school days, get to see her everyday :D
Gave her the peanut candy, she seems happy. Hope she really like it. :) 

Day by day, slowly, I wanted to know you more, wanted you to know me more, wanted you to know, I'm a reliable person too. I might be playful, but I have some time that I will be serious, and something that I will be dead serious, love. 

Not sure how you feel, but I will do my best, and I will be myself, so that you can like who I am :)

Lovely Monday? Nehhh..
Whenever there is you, it is a lovely day. ♥

I wonder how my love stories will end up. :3

♥Lmw'

I'm afraid ♥

Hey bloggie, I'm here today as well :3

Today replay the song 'With You - Chris Brown' for unlimited times, so nice :3
And whenever I close my eyes, you will be the one that pop out.
I know right, I'm sure, that you are the one.
But yet, I'm afraid, afraid that when you know it, you won't treat me as before, afraid that you will try to avoid me. So afraid to tell you. :/

Don't worry, I won't go so fast. Stay as friend for now, cause I know that you need more time to understand me. And I will show you that, I have a shoulder that you can rely on whenever you want, and it will always be there for you. :)

Somehow I feel like saying these things are quite irrelevant. Well, I will show you by action. Still, I hope you forgot to read my blog :P

I wonder, how would my monday be, when I saw you. Hope everything will be okay, hope you won't avoid me, hope I got that chance. :)

That's all for today bloggie. Go for my love one :3

♥Lmw'

Are You The Right One? ♥

Hey bloggie, sorry long time didn't update you. Quite busy these days.

Recently, I'm quite confused about something. Somehow I feel that I'm starting to generate feelings towards her. Classmates always tease about me and her, but I don't feel offensives at all. Really, maybe I liked her? But I think she suits me more :3
Hmm, not sure how she thinks about me, but I start to like her. Oh well, not a bad thing right? Everyone like to see me be with her I think xD
Well, heaven knows :)

FaceTime-ing with Zhao, funny moments with my best friend :D
Hope to see her soon :3

That's all for today I guess, nights peeps :)

♥Lmw'

The other side ♥

'Bloggie, you are my best listener ♥'

But who knows what happen next?

When this statement come out of my mouth, my heart feels like stabbed with knife. But there is no blood nor tears. What left is pain, heart ache. I can see deep in myself, I'm crying, like a miserable baby that had been abandon, like a 6 years old kid that lost his parents, like a cat that witness her kittens being killed... 

Who know that I need someone that I can really talk to? Who know what I have deep inside me? Who know that, there is a thousands of lies in that single statement of mine? 

Someone might have noticed, but who really cares? Someone that care might have not notice yet, but how I know who is that 'someone'? 

':)' I can do this easily, in social web, in school, in life, but in heart? When is the last time I smile from my heart? 

It hurts, it really..hurts...

My Beloved Listener ♥

Hey bloggie, sorry that I've abandon you for so long. Just too lazy to update you >.<
Gonna tell you a lot of stuff today :)

Started my form 6 life, wohoohoo, it was fun. Love it a lot :D
Met a lot of new friends, everyone are being so nice and friendly. Except 1 of my classmate, guess he is just shy.

I've a crush on one of my classmate, but I think she don't have any special feelings for me, but I will try my best ! Won't give up so easily :3
Actually, I knew myself, I don't really have a lot of chance on her. She like tall guy (-1 for me). I understand her best friend more than her (another -1). And I think I'm just not her type of guy (more -1). But who knows? Maybe she might fall for me someday?
*Singing Heaven Knows - Rick Price: 'Maybe my love will come back someday, only heaven knows~~'
But, I actually feels that her friend suits me more. Oh well, time will let me make clear of everything :)
Haha, done with the love talk xD

Having issues with my little cousin sis. It is like I pissed her for centuries. Every single time I start a conversation, she declare a war. What the hell with this kid?! I've totally no idea how should I treat her. Scold? I can't do it. Patient? I can't. So the last choice, not to be funny at her. So be at her, always SERIOUS. Just to prevent war. I treat you as my sister, all the things I said, doesn't have any sarcastic content in it. But you won't understand I guess?

And with my elder cousin sis, there is 1 day, I got really really mad at her. I went to school with some killing aura, and my look damn scary that morning weyhh. Sorry peeps for scaring you all. Don't worry, I'm already back to myself >.<
Okay, let me continue. But after school I went home and saw her, I just can't get any mad at her. And instead, my anger towards her lost immediately the moment I saw her. Guess this is what we call 'love'? Ahaha, she is my cousin, treated her as my sis :3
Well, although she is not a good listener, she know all my secrets. In front of her, I can say everything. Haha, good to have a sis like this ♥


Bloggie, just wanted to tell you that, you are the best for me. When I'm down, you are the one that will listen to me. How I wish you will turn out and become something real in my life. But I know it is impossible. Really glad that you will be my listener. 
*getting kinda crazy right? hahaha >.<


♥ Lmw'

The determination ♥

Hello bloggie, I'm back for you today :D
I'm going back to kl tomorrow, and guess what? I got some surprise for Shermin :D
Shhhhh.. Don't tell her xD

Anyway, I already sure that I will further my study in form 6.
And if you ask why, I will tell you, it cost less and got a chance to go overseas :D
Well, I told everyone this. But, it's not the main reason.
I feel bad for my SPM result, and I wanna do better, I wanna go for the best, I wanna get all the A's in STPM !
I want to show everyone, I can do it, no more fail. It will be a hard task, but I will do it, and when I start, I will go for the best. I don't wanted to let anyone down again, no more..

♥Lmw'

Thousand swords pierce through me ♥

The feeling, it's like thousand swords pierce through my body. The feeling, I never get before, the disappointment. Sorry, but apologize won't do anything better. I disappointed my parents, my aunt, my sister, everyone that trusted me...
I never know it will be this hurt...
I never know...
It will be this pain, to let someone that trust you down...
I'm so sorry...
When I heard your voice, I can feel the disappointment in you, and I feel miserable, for I can't do a thing...

Today took my SPM result, and I was like 'Wtf is this?' I'm so not satisfy, I could have done better. Sigh.
Emo whole day.
Today I met a new friend, she is a girl. Oh well, nothing much bout her.
Bought something for XXXXXXX. Shhh !! xD
I think that's all for today, not in mood.
Hey girl, is it you really don't give a damn on me?
You didn't even ask how was my result.
Are you looking at my blog?
Are you already forgot my appearance?
Or am I just a stranger that passed by your life?
Doesn't matter, my heart brooke.. </3

I know, my sorry won't do anything better, but if you all would.. give me 1 more chance, I won't let you all down. I promise, I will give my everything to get to the best. So, can you believe in me 1 more time? Just this once.. Please..

♥Lmw'

I still can live without you ♥

It's been few days, I never find you. It feels bad, but I know it is better for me to leave you. Well, you can still live without me. I think I ain't somebody to you, so it won't change anything if I stay in a distance with you ;)

Today hang out with Fam, Lucas, Howard, Raj and Fanshu. ;D
Went cinema watch John Carter, not bad :)
Then go eat steambot. Damn noisy larh us xD
I so damn hyper, then go ask the girl beside our table to help us take photo.
She is walking back to her table, then I say 'leng lui..', then she walk even faster, and then I continue 'can you help us to take a photo?' Then I was like 'EPIC FAIL'. Ahaha ! Well, then she told her friend, then another girl help us take. Weyhh !
Too hyper lol, haven't been like that for longggg time xD
Then raj fetch me back home. Good day weyh !

Tomorrow going to take result. Well, I don't think I will get very good result, ughh, can't help, just let it be.
I'm sleepy now, so bye bloggie, happy day ;D


♥Lmw'

I loved you, I love you more; I hurted, I hurt more ♥

Hi bloggie, today just an ordinary day. Wanted to go mcd with Shermin in the morning, walk till half way, rain -.-
Then go back le. Then we chat chat chat a lottttt. Ahaha !
After that go hear songs on youtube.
Connie ♥
Her sound damn good larh, made me shiver >.<
Okay skip skip.
Still having jet lag, damn it ! Now 7pm/8pm then very sleepy dy, want go sleep xD
Then wake up at 12am. Lol.
Shermin also just woke up, then we chat again.
Tomorrow, planning to go mcd AGAIN. Well, hope can le, and after that go Chatime, hope can meet Ee Wen :3

Okay now, girl, idk that, isit I'm special or annoying for you, I just feel like, you treat me different from your other friend, so, how you think about me? You never answer me.. I.. felt bad you know? I don't know what to do. That miserable feeling.. Love need courage, yea that's right. I suppose I have not enough courages..
You're impossible to resist.. Yea, you mean a lot to me, but how about me for you? Do I mean anything for you? Sigh..
Nevermind, I will continue to move on, although my wound still haven't recover, but I can't just stop here. I'll carry on, any barrier in front of me, I'll just break through, and although, in the end of the road, there is nothing but tears and behind, a road full of blood. So what? That's life.

♥Lmw'

The heart that scattered all over the floor ♥

Hello bloggie, it's been a long time since my last update ;D

Well, I'm quite lazy to actually, ahahah !

Holiday !!

Shermin going to sunway today, with her friends, and leave me alone :(

Ahaha, nevermind, I still love you :P

For a moment, I thought of give her up. If you open up my chest, you'll see my heart full with scar. Love pain, but it will be more pain to give you up.

Stop, stop loving you, there are always someone better.... Alwayss....

But I choose you instead, funny.

You aren't the best, but you just took all my attention. 

Giving up on you, possible? 

Just too much love is given, but I feel, it isn't enough. 

I don't give you enough love, there must be something I can do, something more than just this. 

I never get your reply, about my confession. Oh well, I still get the chance right?

I know I'm messing up my post, ahahaha !

Anyway, this is everything for today, going to be hardworking start from tomorrow ;D

Bye bloggie ;)

♥Lmw'

Something ♥

The moment when I saw your status, I'm stunned, totally out of my mind...

May her rest in peace. 

I know that, what you have been through, I will never know how it feels. But remember that... No matter what happened, I'll always be there for you. I really mean it. So if you need someone, just tell me. 

Time that past won't come back anymore. It is like people. Your life still have a long way to go, and I believe, you already grown up, and I'm sure you will be able to stay strong. And if you need someone, I'll always be there for you. Although I'm not a good listener, I'll do my best to help you. I know I can't do much, but I really hope that I can help you, 5%, 10%, 50%, doesn't matter for me, as long as, I really help you.

Don't worry, she is now at a place far from earth, and she will be okay, rest in peace.

She will be watching you always, so don't let her down, be the best you can !

♥Lmw'

Long time no see ♥

Hello peoples, long time didn't blog, due to some reason xD
Well, I wrote a short stories, well, did it when I'm bored, check out my notes on fb :)

These days do nothing much, just now FaceTime with Zhao, and we took some photos, LMAO larh weyhh !

Two idiots xD

I saw your fb, your status, actually who are you talking about? I really really so wanted to know...
But I think it is not me..
You said, 'no one is perfect'. Yes, but in my eyes, you are, cause I love you ♥
You seems emo, what happened? I hope you will tell me, I hope I can comfort you..
I hope, when you cry, I can hug you tight, wipe your tears, and tell you 'You still got me'..
I hope..
I hope you are okay, cheers girl, everything will be fine, just think positively :)

(45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON’T ASK FOR:)

You shared this, 45 things, can I do it? Do I even have the chance?

But I believe, I will get the chance, I will..(Although I don't believe myself, but I must believe, if I don't believe, I will never get the chance:') )

These days, keep thinking about you, cant stop myself. At night, when I'm on bed, I close my eyes, I think of you, every time. And, I feel sad, moody. Sigh..
Btw, I wanted to buy you something, hmm, but don't know do I have the chance or not, if got, I'll surely buy it :)

Cheer Vivian, I'll stand on your side, no matter what happened :)

The answer ♥

The question, that always pop in my mind, but never get the answer, and never tried...
Why? I'm just too timid. Maybe if I ask you, I will get the answer? Maybe...
I'm waiting for the chance, once it comes, I will catch it, because I know how it feels when the opportunity flee away..
'The message you always write but never sent.' You shared the photo, and who you miss so much actually?
'The question you always thought but never ask.' That's me.
I will mention it here now. I love you, do you love me?
Sigh....
You got a boyfriend...
Maybe, in another life? Ughh...
I saw what he had done for you. The love dedication things...
And I can't fall asleep, thinking of you, and what he did to you...
:'(

I LOVE YOU ♥

I'm happy, and sad, at the same time...

Tears drop, and I smile, at the same time...

Silly me :')

♥Lmw'

The moment, I realise... ♥

The moment, I realise, I can't do a thing to show my love to you, is so miserable...
Valentine is coming, an important day to show someone how much you love him/her...
Sigh, I totally lose...
I'm no match for him...
He is too good...
Or I'm just not good enough? Haha..
Nevermind, as long as you are happy :')

Nvm, let's talk about these few days. Other than online, nothing else :/
Game fb game fb, bored, I wanna go back to meet my cousin :(
I miss you, Shermin :/
Hehe, hope time past faster now >,<
Well, I guesse I could not say a lot of stuff. Not really got the mood, and couldnt remember what I did xD
So see ya bloggie :)

♥Lmw'

Home Sweet Home ♥

Yeaahh ! At last back to home ;D
Yesterday went Birmingham, umm, actually nothing much to play, just bought a lot of stuff, woot !
I damn like my new shoes larh :3

Nice? ;D

Hehe, like it a lot larh >.<

Was looking for shoes that Shermin desire, but didn't saw any, sorry Shermin :/

Nevermind, will be going to London soon, maybe there will be more ;D

Opened fb, saw her new profile pic, woot !

View it, saw her wall post, and...

I feel envy...

Ughh, he did that to you, so sweeeeeeeett...

Yea, I admit it, he is great, romantic, handsome...

Not like me...

I feel jealous, you belong with him...

Well, I can do nothing right? Sigh..

Wish you are happy everyday ;D

*Singing... In another life, I'll be your guy... ♥

I definitely will :')

♥Lmw'

Still a kid ♥

Hello people, yesterday forgot to blog, or too lazy to blog instead :P
Watched Paranormal Activity yesterday, and I am totally freaked out. Not even dare to sleep alone, wtf.
Really scary larh :(
Now I know what kind of girlfriend I wanted, a girl that likes cartoon and don't watch ghost movie.
Hahaha, any girl like this in the world?
Most important is, she love me ♥
Do you, my love one? (You know who you are;D)

Going to Birmingham tomorrow, hope it will be fun ;D
Nothing much to post.

My love one, I miss you, I really really miss you..
Your voice, your face, your text...
Forgive me please, for what I have done....
I hope I can love you more, and more....

♥Lmw'

Madam Snowy ♥

Snow isn't an often phenomena here, I hope I can at least get one more time, heavy snow before I go back, can I? Please, Madam Snowy ♥

Yesterday didn't blog, cause I forgot, lol.
Anyway, nothing special happen.
These days also play a game named Boomz. Well, long time no play, so now play it again, not bad lol.
Oh yea, dye my hair today, my dad did it xD

Doesn't looks like I dye it huh?

Today, me and my mom and two guy were talking about some horror story. About 12am, I went back to my room. Then I turn on the lights, guess what happen? BOO !

Short circuit ! OMFG !

Well, fixed it afterwards, the bulb burn down, nothing much.

And after that, my mom asked me to watch Paranormal Activity together. 

Seriously, the movie aren't that scare as I imagined... maybe cause I'm playing my comp while watching, lol.

My mom watch until very sleepy, and she asked dad to close it. LMAO !

She is like watching cartoons !

Ahh anyway, if I concentrated, I will be totally freak out xD

Already about 4am here, so I'm going to sleep, see everybody tomorrow ;D

Have a nice day/tight sleep everyone ;)

♥Lmw'

How are you ♥

How are you recently? Everything going good? Hope you are good :)

Another ordinary and boring day, except games and video, nothing much. Oh yea, of course, chat with Zhao :D
Who is Zhao? I think I never mention her before, my besties ;D
She know a lot of things of me, cause when I can't sleep in late night, she always accompany me.
Reason? Cause she haven't sleep. And why? Cause we are from different country :3
Ahahaha!
Best friend forever ♥

Watched few movie, I like cartoons, and my mom say I mad, lol, she say I like cartoon since small, till now, like till mad xD
That's why I'm cute xD
Kidding, don't take it so serious :/

Tomorrow, maybe snowing, snowball fight ! Anyone? xD
Let's do it !
Rolling in the snow ! Set fire to the snow ! Someone like snow !
Adele !
I'm hyper now :/

Oh well, I'm sleepy, so good night everyone, or good morning to some the others, have a sweet dream/ good day ;D
Wish everyone happy ♥

♥Lmw'

I smurfs you ♥

When I say 'I smurfs you', it means you, no others ♥

Today is an ordinary day too, just watch The Smurfs and How To Train Your Dragon, both also so nice larh weyhh. Go watch it if you haven't :)
The Smurfs, few scene made me cry, what la me :'(
Very very nice, and very cute as well. No wonder you will like it that much.
How To Train Your Dragon also nice, I like both ♥
Actually I wanted to watch Tangled, just don't know where to watch, sad T.T

Nothing much to say, watch it, nice, recommended, 5 star ! xD

♥Lmw'

Good day ♥

Today, consider as a good day for me. Steak as supper, and red wine, wow, like it >.<

Only about half bottle of wine, and I'm nearly drunk, how weak ! 

Lol, at least I still got the strength to blog :P'

Windy cold outside there, made me very sleepy, even walking on the street, I still feel very sleepy :/

Felt a bit dizzy, going to sleep, soon, so bye bloggie, see you tomorrow, when I recover xD

♥Lmw'

Who is in my mind ♥

Why would I think of you today? Why? I'm the one that don't have any feeling, I'm the cruel one, I'm the bad one, I'm the cold blooded one, and now, I miss you. Tell me, you are kidding, tell me, I'm dreaming, tell me, I'm drunk, tell me, why even we break up? If only you gave more trust in me, if only you are not you, if only we didn't even started, if only... Doraemon exist... To tell the truth, I thought of some happy memories between us. Thought? Or I wanted more? Ughh... Why would I look at your post? Why would I care who like your post? Why would I even care who you comment on? Why would I care about that boy you chatting with? Damn it !! What's with me now? Ugh...

Today when I woke up, I saw Viviam Choe online, and I was thinking, should I find her and chat? Idk. So I played tetris, and at last, I asked her would she play tetris with me. And she accept my invitation, damn happy larh weyyhh. Then I win only 1 time, cham. And then, dunno she quit or disconnect, anyway, we stop playing. Then I find her chat. She told me she viewed my blog, and I was like, dunno happy or what, I wrote a lot about you, don't I? And what you think about? I don't know. I know you remove your blog, did you create a new one? Anyway, thx for chatting with me today, I'm really happy, and I cried, luckily my parents still sleeping, if let them saw I cried sure die. Do I have another chance to chat with you again? Anyway, hope you live happily always :)

Lol, funny thing, I wouldn't wanted to say about today. Well, I can't even remember clearly what I did. What I remember is my complicated mind. Really really complicated... Hope I will get better, anyone out there hope I get better as well? Thx :)
If only I can look through future...

Oh yea, I got a lyrics to make, wanted to give to _ _ _ _ _ _      _ _ _ _ , my ♥ one :'')
In progresssssss ......
So this is all I wanna post today, bye bloggie :)

♥Lmw'

Life ♥

Why? Why an emo boy has to have so much love on someone? Why? Why an emo boy has to be so sad? I think everyone think I'm having fun in this vacation, but it is not. I ain't happy. It is like, my life is different now, I can't accustom to it. Sigh, my problem? Emo ♥

Today I got a weird dream, well, why is it about you, Ee Wen :/
Well, not weird, but kinda unbelievable. Anyway, skip everything.
Went shopping today, nothing special, end of the day, FULL STOP

Okay, let's talk about what is in my heart. Anyway, I don't think anyone will view my blog :')
*Foreveralone*

Vivian Choe, do you even remember my blog link? Who was I in your heart? Who am I in your heart? Do you even wanted to know how am I? What you want? You didn't remove me as friend, and why? Sigh, why... You asked me to get away from you, do you think I can do that? Do you think I'm that strong? Do you ever love me for a second? Now, I will never get these answer. I always asked you to think positively, but I can't do it myself. How stupid. How miserable. Sigh... Now, I can only hope you are happy everyday, and all the best to you. After all, your life function as usual with or without me. *Foreveralone* :''D

You are the only girl that will never hates me, never fail to make me smile. Even you ask me to do something, I'm happy to help you. Love? I don't know, maybe. Lol. I don't wanted to love you, cause if I did, everything might change. The one I love, I will never get, so I don't wanted to love you, just let me stay like this kay? Stay myself :''D

To tell the truth, I really wanted to have a long long chat with you. But I seems annoying to you, tell me, am I annoying? Well, I think I won't disturb you anymore, I will still stalk you. That's what you said I did, ahaha. Find me when you need me, find me whenever you want, I will never leave anyone alone. Cause I know that, the feeling being alone, the feeling when the people you love abandon you, when the people you like ignore you, when the people you wanted to friend walk away from you :''D

Friendzone, it is better than Strangerzone. I will never think too much again. I think I won't update my blog, until I'm back to myself. So bye bloggie, take care yourself, you have some companions, you don't need to be alone, not like me :')

♥Lmw'

Couldn't get you out of my mind ♥

My head, my mind, my heart, full of you, even you are not mine, neither my girl, nor my friend... </3

Hello people ;D

Woke up 6 am, 2 pm in Malaysia, then I went toilet, then play my iPhone 4, woot ! Jail breaked with iOS 5.0.1 ! My epic dad, he is awesome ;D

Then I play my phone, till 7.30 am, 3.30 pm in Malaysia, then went shower. Will be going out later, ahaha !

So looking forward to it ;D

After that, took coach to Gloucester town, bought McDonald. I tried the Sausage Mc Muffin for the first time, it was delicious ! Like it ♥

After that took a different coach, planed to visit the Iron Mining Caves, Clearwell Caves. We went in, £6.00 each adult, well, seriously, not worth a visit :/

Lol, then went in their souvenir shoppe, guess what I saw? Some Zodiac pendant, bracelet and phone hanger ! Mine is dark blue in colour, bought one bracelet ;D

And I saw Scorpio's one, Turquoise. Hey Vivian Choe, it was your Zodiac, and you favourite colour too ! I wanted to buy one for you, but my mom nagged me, lol. Well, will bring you here for a visit, if I ever get a chance :')

Then walk back to bus stop, wait for the coach, back to Gloucester town again. Shopping is what we did, ahaha ! Bought 1 pants, cost £60.00 originally, with 20% discount. It is really expensive, well, my mom told me to buy it, cause it looks nice, still, I feel it is so expensive. I like it too, thank you mom ♥

My aunt bought her daughter and her son both a pair of shoes, nice shoes ;D 

Except for the smallest one, her taste is a bit different, so I need to show her the photo before buying her shoes :)

Then went into a place, umm, a little casino? 18+, but still, I went in, ahahaha!

Aunt played roulette, me and her, both picked 5 numbers, all together 10, and we won £20.00, that was lol. It was fun, addicted, and will probably get my pocket dry if I played :P

After few games, went back 4.30 pm, 12.30 am in Malaysia. 

Had dinner, then went back to room and watch movie.

And this is my day ;D

Looks like idiot :3

Oh yea, weather forecast says that tomorrow is having snow, so looking forward to it, Snowball fight ! Let's do it !

Just kidding xD

Vivian Choe, I don't think you will view my blog, but I will still write about you :')

Well, you are not mine, not even mine, but why I am so sad about what you did? I cried, I hurt, I .. Acted like an idiot for you ! And why? Ugh, love makes me blind ♥

I still love you, like I did last time, so good if you are single, ahh, forget it, you choose him, or I am the one who try to break you two up instead? Nah, I never thought of that. Just, he treat you bad, umm, at least I think so. Well, hopes he treat you good then, hope you for the best :) 

:')

:'(

♥Lmw'

Love it, because of you ♥

I love Mc' Flurry Oreo because of you. And now, I love it even more, because you already got away from me </3

Hello everyone, I got to London yesterday :D

14 hours in plane, really get me dying :/ I hate the moment the plane descent, my ear pain as it is going to burst :(

Already 1 day, my ear still like weird, isit broke? Lol, even if it is not functioning, doesn't matter, cause I guess I won't get a chance to hear your sound anymore.

When I reached London, probably 4.30 am Malaysia time, it was 8.30 pm in London. It was cold outside, then wait for the coach, bus we called in Malaysia, to Gloucester, the place my mom stay. 11.30 pm coach, and me and my aunt need to wait for so long, My Goshh ! Doesn't matter lol. reach my mom's place about 3.30 am, 11.30 am in Malaysia. Good morning to people in Malaysia ;D

Then chat awhile, then get to bed.

Today 11.00 am, 7.00 pm in Malaysia woke up, then go shower. After that travel to the nearest town by coach with my aunt and mom after breakfast. My dad cooked it, yumm :3

We went to a town called Cheltenham. I like the style of the buildings, so nice and classic. About the shops, it is different from Malaysia. I seldom saw cars, here is so nice, I would like to come again, with my love, and take a lot a lot of photos :3

My Love one... Ahh, forget it, I don't wanted to cry :')

Quite cold outside, bought a belt and a shirt. Aunt bought some souvenir for her daughter, and 2 pairs of slippers, cute one, I like it a lot :3

Then walk around, saw many nice scene, but didn't ask my aunt to take photo for me, so we just walk walk walk. If Shermin was there, sure we will take a lot a lot of photos, let's come together next time, if your mom allow LOL xD

Mom went back first, about 4 pm, 12 am in Malaysia. She need to get back to work. So byehh mom, see ya later ;D

After that, me and my aunt walk walk, then go sit in a cafeteria for awhile, drank a cut of hot chocolate. Yumm, and after few seconds, I noticed that, I have not yet take photo, Oh My Gosh !

Ahh well, took photo of the pain croissant, well baked, taste good, yumm :3

After that, went back by coach again. Need to walk quite a distance until we get back to our place, it is freezing cold outside, only about 5 pm, 1 am in Malaysia, the sky started to turn darker and darker. I hope I can see snow these days. Ahaha. Then went back, ate, then online.

Zhao said she felt disappointed cause I can't meet her. To tell the truth, me too. Mom say next 2 years, I'm still small now, under 18 LOL. I think I might get a chance, just need to talk to my mom. I will try my best kay? No worry ;)

It is 7.50 pm here atm, and 3.50 am in Malaysia, so good night people in Malaysia ♥

So I will update my blog when my parents is not around, I don't wanna let them know it, my secret, wakaka ! 

So byehh bloggie ;D

♥Lmw'

No fate ♥

I have no fate with the girl I love, so is that means that I have to choose a girl I don't love, and try to love her?

Today open house, took a lot angpau. Ahaha, then nothing special also.
I really really hope I can get your reply, or your text, or fb message, but I always feel disappointed :(
Maybe you are busy? Or maybe, I ain't a nice people? I don't know. Sigh..

Vivian Choe, I got something to tell you. Well, I don't think you will view my blog after all. I know, you hate me, you love him, so I wish you live happily with him :)
I don't think I will have the courage to text you, cause I scare you will say 'Don't ever find me again !' or 'Get away from me !'. These words, will make me cry.
Sigh.. Anyway, find me when you wanted to, cause I will always reply you, always wait for you, always...... Wait, I don't think I got the right to say these things. I still love you :')

♥Lmw'

A world without you ♥

Without you, I can still live, without me, you can still live.
Without you, I can't be happy a day. Without me, how are you?
Hope you are better without me :')
Ahh, you have got your boy, to care you, I'm the third party, I forgot that, ahh well, it always end this way, so just let it be. Tell myself, I will still live without you, I won't die, I won't get cancer, only my deep heart will be wounded, small matter :')

Went to cinema today, and wtf, in the movie I watched, there was a girl named Vivian. And when someone romantic happened between Vivian and another boy(the third party), I cried :'(
Then 1 more scene, I cried until like everyone know, lol, funny la me.

Oh yea, Ee Wen, I thought you wouldn't wanted to friend me anymore, I really very worry, and I thought 'I'm on my own again'. Sigh. Well, make it positive, maybe you are busy, or doing something. Yea, make it like that :)
Gotta sleep now, tomorrow gonna wake up early, so bye bloggie :)

♥Lmw'

Back From Drunk ♥

Yesterday drink beer till drunk, so didn't update my blog. Just woke up, 7.00am, and everything still fresh in my mind. It is like a dream, I hope it is a dream of course. No matter how sad I am, I need to move on right? Cause I know it, if I don't, you still will move on without caring me. Sorry, I don't know that you love him so much, I don't know that he love you so much, and I don't know that you love each other so much. I know, the friendship between us are ended, your last text, I will remember it, forever. And you, I will slowly forget, but still will keep you in my mind, in a corner. You are too good for me, sometimes, I realise I didn't suit you at all. So I don't understand you at all right? Second time, I ever cried for a girl, but I will bless you with my tears, always stay happy :,)

I bet you will unfriend me once you got the chance to get online. I'm ready of course. I used to be one of your besties, and now, I'm your no one, I'm your nobody. Ugh, why am I still so sad? Beer didn't work at all, it just let me temporarily be happy. Blue skies above, how are you? Of course you don't feel good. It's all my fault, I will do anything for you, other than disappear from the world. Reason? Cause I don't wanted to go to a world without you. :,) 

I gave you my heart, once, and I'm glad, I got a chance to give you :,)

Once, my story is full of you, and from now, I think I need to stop writing about you, but I will hope the best for you :,)

Chinese New Year, I think I need to accustom the days without you. 

Ee Wen, thx for controlling me yesterday, if not I will keep drinking none stop, haha. Wish the best for you and him too :)

I don't know how will I live my life now, how I should go on, where I shall go, but I need to move on, that's what I know :) and also the only thing I can do :,(

♥Lmw'

Last message from you ♥

Drunk. Wont post a lot, so bye all, hope everyone is happy, hope you will live better without me :,)

♥Lmw'

An unknown question ♥

藕念你，为啥你有如此能力，能让我那么不开心？
I miss eu, why do you have the power to make me unhappy?

First day of Chinese New Year, wake up, go bath, then wear new clothes, ahaha !
No red clothes, so gonna wear a pink one. Hmm, close enough to red, I guess.
Ate breakfast, then get some angpau, then Gerald, Kenneth, Yvoone, Nicholas, Jasmine and me went up to room and chit-chat. Then they wanted to chat with cousin that stay in US, so I went gambler. I won !! Rm1, still, it is a WON, and I'm happy with it xD
Then after that, went mcd, Jasmine fetch us. I sit at the back, in a Kenari, LOL.
After mcd, went carrefour, cause we have nothing to do. Play there, although there got nothing much to play.
Then about 7pm, we reach home. After that, watch movie in my comp. 那些年我们一起追的女孩, damn touching larh :,(
Maggie as dinner, Happy Chinese New Year maggie =D

Chat with Ee Wen, cause I feel down. Thanks a lot, you made me feel a lot better =)
Now I don't need beer to sleep, it is a good thing. Haha. Anyway, boring day I have =/
Hope tomorrow will be better =)

♥Lmw'

Happy Chinese New Year? Maybe~

Happy Chinese New Year everyone =)
Hope you all are happy =)

For me, just Chinese New Year. Should I be happy? Why am I not happy? I'm more like emo, sad, and of course, I think a lot. Maybe beer can help me? Drunk, forget everything, let it be a Happy Chinese New Year :')

想要找一个在乎你的伴侣，真难。往往，我觉得你就是我的她，但有时，你真的对我太冷落了。这是你，还是害怕爱情了？这是我，还是别人？总没有自己的感觉。我说我醉了，但其实，我并没有醉，醉了的话不可信吧？算了，就借酒消愁去吧。如果那个男人是我，那该多好啊。算了吧，我真希望我是你的男人，可惜，我感觉不到你的爱意，又感觉不到你讨厌我，那到底是什么呢？算了吧，就自己一个人，想个够好了:,)

只有爱你的人，才不会想你受伤害，才会无论如何都要保护你，才会无论如何都要逗你笑，才会因为你吃不下而感到担忧，才会因为你伤害自己而感到生气，才会不顾一切的付出。。。就只希望对方能过得快乐。我也很想有人爱，了解，体谅。谁叫我长这个样子，命 :,)

♥Lmw'

If someone grant me a wish ♥

If someone will grant me a wish, I hope that ......... =)

Why I don't tell? Cause rumor say that 'If your wish is told, it won't be granted', so don't ask me, only for Vivian Choe, I will only tell you ♥

Today, unlike the other days, today is a busy day, really really busy. As Chinese New Year is around the corner, we need to clean up the house. Everyone are involved, move this and that, mop this and that, clean this and that. So I skip everything =)

At night went Giant, or Carrefor? I can't differentiate it lol. Nvm, something happened, we lost grandpa, OMG !

Luckily Giant, or Carrefor are not too big, so we manage to find him, lucky LOL. 

Nvm, went home, clean again, tomorrow still need to clean outside, ugh~ 

Need to wake up early tomorrow, go take stuff with aunt, 7am, damn it, thought I can sleep late a bit >.< 

Well, since I have to wake early tomorrow, today I will sleep a bit earlier, so bye bloggie =)

Ee Wen, I viewed your blog, as usual. Don't know do you have the chance to see this, but I think you will see it after 3/4 days. Still, I gonna tell you, you made me cried :') What you write, too touching, really, can't resist. Bet your keyboard is all wet after you write that post. I really really hope that he will come back to you. Cheer up, I will pray everyday, hope you and him get back together, I wanted to see your blog with happy things. 

So, WJY ! If you ever see this, go see her blog, go see what is on her mind, go see how much she love you, go feel her love, go, hold her, and don't ever let go !

♥Lmw'

Where are you? Miserable ♥

Vivian Choe ! I miss you a lot ! I feel like crying, I wanted to see you, I wanted you, I didn't receive your text the whole day, you know how worry I am? Luckily your sister get online, if not, I really don't know who should I ask, I really really worry about you. Now I know you are okay, I feel more relief, and I also feel like crying, don't make me so worry larh :,(

Today woke at 11am, then go online, as usual. Actually today I thought can go Chatime with Shermin, then I wait, wait, wait, then she back le, and I was so happy. Then I asked her 'hey, wan go chatime?' Then she said 'Went back'. So bad larh ! Leave me alone =( Owe me 1 Chatime I tell you =P

Chat with Ee Wen, from 12pm till night, except the time she went tuition. Haha, she don't know how to pronouns my name, bet no one will pronouns it right also xD
She always say she is okay, well, I really hope she is okay, but I don't think she is really okay. Only you can walk yourself, as friend, we can only pull you up when you fall. So cheer =)

Midnight that time skype with Zhao, me and Shermin, then me and Zhao play tetris battle, she rank so high, so is a big advantage for me, wahaha(those who played tetris battle will know) !
Then Shermin wanted to ply, let her play lu, she is like so slow, Zhao waited for her LOL. Then she keep laughing, don't know she laugh what, then I saw her laugh, I also laugh, then she saw me laugh, she laugh more, in the end, both of us laugh uncontrollable xD

Vivian Choe:
          I bet you already long time didn't view my blog. Know why? Cause you always forgot. Haha, I hope you saw my posts for you. I don't dare to say I love you too much to you, cause I scare you will feel annoying. But I know that you know that I love you, action speaks more than words, I will prove it. I will hold you tight, don't scream that time. Maybe my hand are rough, not nice to touch, but I believe that I can give you the warm that no one could give, Love you ♥

♥Lmw'

Ms. Rain ♥

Aww, sweet one, rain again, at 3.36am. I like it ♥
How are you? Hope you are okay. Listen to the rain, hear the rain speaks, and it will comfort you, really, try it =)

Today saw Shermin come back, then say hi to her. Nothing much. Lazy larh her, sleep sleep sleep. Don't let her see this, or I will get killed lol, kidding, she is sweet, she won't do that ♥
Went jogging with Sook Mun, actually, I really DID wanted to go jogging, just around the park, but then, I am going to top up, and then... I end up going to Chatime, so no jogging LOL.
Bought 2 cups, 1 for Sook Mun, and 1, for Shermin. She always wanted to drink it, so bought it for her =)

Viewed Ee Wen's blog, and chat with her a bit. Actually, I don't really know, should you give up on him or not, it depends on yourself. Like I said before, if he worth your tears, then stay for him. Well, to tell the truth, my brain was saying 'What an idiot, accept the reality!.. blablabla'. But my heart was saying to the brain 'Have you got any feelings? Don't say a thing if you don't know the pain, and you aren't the one to get the pain!'. Hmm, now I'm idiot one, speaking to myself? Haha. Okay, here is the thing I wanna tell you, don't ever say that he will not love you anymore, no one knows what will happen in the future, so don't give up so easily, if you love him so much, eventually, he will know it, he will feel touch, he will love you back, with his heart. Imagine, when he open up your heart, and there is nothing but him inside, he will cry like a baby I believe. Hope, it might not come true, but there is still chances, then why give up? Believe in yourself, try until the last minute, never give up =)

Mom just asked me, am I sure that what to study? And say a lot. Made me totally lost my way T.T
Oh, my angel helped me out, thx Vivian Choe, you help me clear up my mind, and my target is clear now ♥
I would like to give you a kiss on your cheek, if you don't refuse it =D
I still remember that day, you hold your hand with your friend, and I was thinking 'If only I have the courage to hold you'. I was too timid, but if I did, I will never let go ♥
I will do it, definitely do it ! I don't wanted to be friendzoned forever. I wanted to be the one that make you feel warm, make you happy, make you smile, make you laugh, and make you love me ♥
I hope everyday, I could say I love you, and you will say 'I love you' back, I hope when I said something caring and romantic, you won't say 'Lol. Speechless' ♥

That's all for today, and the rain almost stop, 4.06am.

Oh, and forgot something, thx for introducing all the songs to me Ee Wen =) *hugs the songs*

♥Lmw'

Wish came ♥

Wow, can't believe it, yesterday after I finished my post, rain really came, I was so happy =D
How was everyone then? I know it make you miss him more, I felt the same last time, but time will past, and slowly rain will wash away every pain, and left you a lovely spring =)

Okay, an ordinary day too. But something still in my mind, make me unhappy. I ain't someone that easily get unhappy, but your words really hurt, really really hurt me </3
I won't mention who you are, but what I will say is 2 things. Firstly, when you ask someone a favour, please pay attention too. Secondly, treat me as one of your family member, your words hurt me a lot you know? I thought finally, I got a family, although it isn't my real family, but it makes me feel warm enough. I love this home, I wanted to be part of it, I treat you as my sister, so treat me as your brother as well okay?
Wanna know what she said? Not gonna tell here, ask me personally, I might tell you =)

Can't stop playing the songs, thx to Ee Wen, you make me hug my comp even when I sleep, hahaha !
Idk how are you now, but I wish the best, you will get better, and don't say you are an emo girl, you can be really cheerful, sweet, and if you ask me why? Cause you look so =D

Rain, when you gonna come again? Now I wish it will be in the afternoon, or evening, when sun is still here, cause I wanted to see rainbow. To tell the truth, I have not see rainbow for years, I miss you too Mr. Rainbow, Ms. Rain, please come when Uncle Sun is still around kay? ;)

Me and my lovely cousin sister ;D

Aunt said in the future, we would like each other and be couple lol.
Nahh, it won't happen, you are my lovely sister ♥
And the one I wanted, I will chase you, no matter where you go. You smile, I smile with you; you cry, I hug you tight; you fall, I carry you on the rest of the journey; and if you love me, I will love you more, Vivian Choe ♥
Next time, I will take picture with you, and post it everywhere, facebook, blog, thumblr(I will create one lol)
and even print out, put in my wallet ♥
Haha, say like as we already couple, ahh well, just wanna tell you, I won't give up on you ! ♥

♥Lmw'

Your sound, your smell, your temperature, I want it ♥ Rain ♥

I miss you so much, when are you gonna come? =(

I miss your smell, I miss your sound, I miss you, rain =(

I hope you will come soon. Why I like rain so much? Doesn't it make you feel relief especially during midnight? Well, I do feel that, I like it a lot, best season ever =)

Okay, today also, an ordinary day. Me and Shermin planned to go Chatime before she tuition, and I am so looking forward to it =D

But, when Sook Mun back to home, she asked us to company her to buy candies, so we followed, by walk. That time was 5pm, and we planned to go Chatime at 5:40pm, but after we reached home after buying candies, it was already 6pm, so FAIL lol. 

Anyway, Shermin's tuition starts at 7pm, so she took a shower, then 6:45pm go tuition. And for me, I have to follow her as I need to go get my hair cut, it is near Shermin's tuition place. Haha, first time got my hair wash outside, my first time given to a 19 years old girl, LOL. Don't misunderstand it =P

After I got my hair cut, it is only 7:45pm, still 45 minute until Shermin finishes her tuition. So, I spend my time in Chatime. Hazelnut Chocolate Milk Tea ! Damn nice ! I gonna eat you more and more ! Ahahaha!

Then skip skip skip back home skip skip skip, skip everything =P

Oh yea, view Ee Wen's blog again, actually I did it everyday. Hope you will get better soon =)

Well, actually I don't think you should wait him, but if that will make you feel better, then I can't stop you. It will be difficult to put down, but one day, you will realise that why you waste your time on a man like that. Sorry, I am kind of rude. I don't know anything, so I can't say too much about you and him, but I just hope to see your blog post more joyful things, and your blog song, you said it is like you right? It is not an emo song, it is a sweet one, remember that =)

That's all for today I guesse, so bye bloggieeee =)

♥Lmw'

Another ordinary day♥

Today morning, wake up late, as usual, about 12 am. Then text Vivian, I know she is still in school, so she didnt reply.
But until 6pm, she still haven't reply me, and I started to get worry, where have you been =(
And 7pm something, got your reply, so you are rush that's why forgot to take your phone huh? Glad to know you are okay ♥ =,)
Oh yea, skiped something, let's get back to 1pm, I saw Ee Wen's reply, oh thx god she did not say something like 'Non of your business!' If not, that will be an really awkward moment lol. Btw, nice to meet you, my first new friend in 2012 =D
So we chat chat chat, then nothing le, just an ordinary day.
Oh yea, the pictas I promised, here it is, tadaa:

Cute right? =D
The bottom right one, I edited it >.<
And the top right one, Sook Mun edited it, she made me a mouse, ishh, cute anyway =D

Oh yea, and thx to Ee Wen, recommended a lot of nice music to me, thx alot, hope you get better soon =)
That's all for today, bye bloggie *Listening to piano's music+the sound of rain, damn nice, relaxing* =)

♥Lmw'

♥Secret Letter♥

Hi everyone =)
Actually, planned to wake up at 6am to go jogging, but I fail to wake up, so I didnt go jogging >.<
Woke at 11am something, then text Vivian. Surprisingly, she woke up lol. Ahh, skip skip. around 2pm, went bukit tinggi, then shopping, bought 3 shirts, 2 pants and 1 sunglasses, damn like it =D
Then took pic, cause I wear cap go out, my first time =)
Damn funny larh Shermin, her friend went to find her, but he is shy to talk to her lol, so I helped out =D
How? Just pull Shermin, softly, to the boy, and make them say hi, then I walk away xD
So bad me, wahahaha!
At least you enjoy it Shermin, admit it =P
Then go take photo with Shermin and Sook Mun. picked 4 best pic, and in one of the photo, Sook Mun made me a mouse, Lmao.
4 photos are great, but I like the one I edited the most, will share it in the next post =)
And skip skip, till home lol.

To Vivian Choe:
          Sorry that I will go to uk soon, I will miss you a lot, I really mean it. I hope I could call you even I am in uk. But I don't know do I got the chance, cause I even seldom call you when I am in Malaysia. When I ain't around, take care yourself, don't ever forget me please please please, whenever you are not happy, just send me a message or miss call, I will contact you immediately. Of course I don't hope anything bad will happen on you. So take care dear♥

To the owner of the blog I like the most, Ee Wen:
          Anyway, we don't know each other, but I like your blog a lot, and I know what happened to you recently, so I sent you a message in fb.
"Even you lost your love, you still need to live your life. Don't think that the guy you love now, you will love him forever. One day, you will realize, love is about both side, you can't change for someone, you accept each other, accept his good and bad, let him accept your good and bad, that is how it works. If he can't accept your life, then how can she be with you forever? He can't expect you to change yourself. Love someone, love who he is, don't expect him to change for you, and don't change for him, accept each other. You are only 16 this year, you still have a long way to walk in live, one day you will meet a guy, that will really understand you, that will accept everything of you, and until that time, never give up on him. Don't think that you are alone now, cause you have your friends around, I bet they will never leave you alone. Don't cry alone, it makes you more sad, makes you more moody. Cheer up girl, you don't know who am I, as well as me, but I always view your blog, just started recently, looking forward to see you become better soon =)"
I hope it didnt annoyed you, after all I just tried to help, cheer up girl, looking forward to see you post more happy things =)

And I think that's all for today, so bye bloggiee =)

♥Lmw'

13&14 =D

♥13th January 2012
          Back to Ipoh for braces appointment =)
Before that, walked to McDonald, bought McFlurry Oreo, Deliver to Vivian♥
Haha, I think the McFlurry became half liquid dy xD
Saw Gerald in Parade, when I just went in. He blame me didnt tell him I back Ipoh. Aiyorr, one day only mah, no need tell ge =)
After that met with Vivian and her friend. Vivian changed her bag, and her file are freaking cool, I like it >.<
Walk with them, talk a bit with her, a bit only, cause I am shy lol, stupid me..
Vivian met up with her cousin, then they go shopping, buy clothes, then I follow lu.
Nothing much anyway.
Well, I dont really know, when only I got the chance, to hold your hand.
I know I got chance one, cheer =D
Then skip skip skip skip, reach aunty Phoebe's house, gonna stay there tonight.
Play with her daughter, Ivy and Elsa, they are so active, lol.
Then sleep in the living room.
Sorry, when you are feeling not well, I cant be there with you =(
Then skip again. until the next day =)

♥14th January 2012
          Woke up at 6am something, then go take a shower with cold water, syok >.<
Freezing of course, then go eat behind the house. Me, Ivy and aunty Phoebe.
After that Ivy went school by school bus, then aunty Phoebe fetch me to Kinta McDonald.
Aunty Phoebe told me something, that I thought that is really wrong. If you ever see this, please keep it on your mind.

Dear Pinky Chan:
          Maybe I have no right to say a thing between you and your mom, but I personally feel that you should further your study, not work for a whole life, you know, if you study well, you can earn more, live better, so why don't wanna study? Last time I heard that you work because you wanna make money for study, I'm impressed. Cause I believe that not much people will do that. Either work or study. I respect you. But now, when I heard that you dont wanna study anymore, I was shocked. I really hope you reconsider it, and good luck anyway, and dont think me as a kid anymore =)

After that, go McDonald drink coffee, then go cyber cafe play game, haha, waste time xD
Then 11pm, I reached train station. My ticket said that the train will arrive at 1121, but 1 train arrived at 1115, then I board that train. And I was like 'wow', the train is so comfort, those seats, very good.
But after 2 station, the people come and check ticket, and it said that I am on the wrong train. And I am like 'huh?' My train is after that one I boarded, LOL.
Then I go down the next station, wait for my train, stupid me, haha.
Then skip skip skip, reached KL, went Subang Parade.
My aunt asked me go see clothes, well, whole Subang Parade, only Voir got the clothes I like, bought a long pants and a T-shirt. Then go Summit, cause Subang Parade have few shops lol.
Sook Mun bought a pair of shoes in Summit, and Shermin bought 2 shirts and a short pants.
Then skip skip skip..
And now, we are over.
Well, I admit, I am a bad guy, yeah, I am. It is just like my mom say.
You said last time, I am good, now, I am bad, why so big changes?
Well, this is the true me. To speak the truth, I cant stand your attitude for quite a time already, but I dont have the courage to break with you. Not because I love you, but because I dont know how to face. I am a coward, I run away from reality, and now, I said it because we can never, or will seldom meet. So, as a conclusion, I am a coward, I knew it.
Everything will come to an end, it just whether a good ending or a bad one. 2 years relationship, maybe is hard to forget, but you will find someone better, better than me, someone that you need. Anyway, you need to change your attitude a bit too. So that's all, good luck in your life =)

♥Lmw'